Okay...I'm About to Be a Hypocrite

It seems like I'm the only one who gets angry. It seems like I take on other people's feelings. I tend to do that but it just makes my life harder. I feel so forgotten and kind of like a shadow. I feel that no matter how hard I try to communicate and fix things that I am going to offend someone. It seems that if I try to save my feelings then it will hurt someone else's. Maybe I'm just sensitive. Maybe I just need to not be so emotional and not take everything so personally. That's who I am. When I feel, I feel from head to toe. I feel out loud. I feel expressively. People get annoyed and they can't stand the fact that I am that way.

It seems like other people, when they get angry, they can get away with it because it rarely happens and they're JUST kidding. Or they lie, and say, "No, I'm not angry; I never get angry." Everyone gets angry and I think it's okay to. Everyone handles problems differently but I'm the type who has to communicate and work it out. It's my pet peeve when people hold it inside and won't tell anyone because they don't want to cause confrontation. Or when they do something else to get it out: like play the piano or something. Like now, for instance, I'm telling the world so I can get it out. I can't just keep it inside I have to hit something or break something. That's just who I am. It makes me so mad when I want to talk about it and they want to keep it to themselves. That's not healthy. You'll have an anurism people! Just talk about it! It's not that hard!

I know anger's not healthy, but if you get it, just work through it! That's the biggest pet peeve of mine. When you purposely make someone mad...and then turn around and blame it on them...and then keep your anger INSIDE...it'll make my blood boil! Your hair is going to turn white over that, I'm tellin' ya people!

Sorry for this jumble. I needed to get out a lot of anger. I already hit things, so I am going with the alternate route.

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