Marci Nelson

As I look back on my life, I remember lots of people. I've always been surrounded by people who love and care about me. I've had lots of friends, some I still have, even to this day. Some I just made. Some are moving on to the next stage of their life while I stay here in high school. But as I remember all of the good times and the bad, I wouldn't change a thing. Sure, I'd change some unkind words, or wish I did some things differently, but I've learned from all of those mistakes. I've learned that I'm stronger that I ever imagined. I've learned that friends come and go, but family is constant. I've learned that everything happens for a reason. Throughout my life I've had people that I've considered my "best friend". And now, as I am sitting here, they aren't my "best friend" like we thought we would be. I often wonder, "Why? What happened? What changed that made us drift apart?" but now, I realize that som...

I hope you don't mind that this post is going to be very unorganized. I just need to gather my thoughts. Sometimes I wonder, "what kind of friend am I?" Do I help people, or hinder them? Do I support them, or not?  Do I let them know that I care? Do I listen? Do I bombard them with thoughts that I am better than them? Do I give them advice when they want it? Or do I just give them advice because I want to be the source of their happiness? I hope I'm a good friend. There's been times in my life when I honestly haven't had friends. So I'm kinda new to this. I hope that I don't offend my friends. I hope that I kill 'em with kindness. I hope that  they know that I appreciate them so much! It's amazing how one girl can be blessed with so many amazing people in her life! Sometimes I wonder, but then I stop. And I am grateful.

Competition. I've always been a competitive person. Let's just say that's not the wisest thing in the world. I sometimes feel like I have to one-up everyone. Sometimes I even get jealous because someone else one-ups me. Even my best friend. And when I'm just average, I feel like I've failed. But I haven't. What's wrong with me? Sometimes I just want something that I am the BEST at. I don't necessarily want to brag about it. But I want it to be known. I am mediocre at a lot of things. I had a YW leader that once said that being mediocre is good. When you're mediocre you're on the right track to perfection. Isn't that what we're all shooting for? So why waste our time being jealous when we can be mediocre at lots of things? We all have the same goal, so why can't we work together, instead of against each other?